Feeling abandoned and hurt

mu

I have a 6 year old and a almost 2 year old. I’m almost in the third trimester in my third pregnancy.

My husband stayed up all night playing a computer game. He went to bed around 5am and woke up around 5pm today.

In an hour he is going to go drinking with his friend.

I am honestly feeling so not okay with this but I feel no desire to voice it or to protest. It’s like I care, but not really because he plays video games all day everyday anyway so it’s not like I’m loosing anything. I hate that I feel that way. I’m not okay with it because it shows me what he would rather be doing and it’s not with me or his kids. He shows me that everyday but choosing the computer anyway.

Why would anyone think that it’s acceptable as a parent, to stay up until the morning making yourself so tired that you sleep in super late putting everything on your partner? Why would anyone then think it’s a good idea to then go out and have a fun time after they slept all day? I’m upset because I know where I stand now and I’m heartbroken. I can’t even talk to him.

He knows I’m upset and all I could say was that I had a headache, which is true. He asked if I was okay and if I wanted to talk and I said no. I feel like I’m making myself feel worse by not talking about it but I’m just to emotional right now to speak with him.

Am I doing the right thing by not talking to him right now in my current state of mind?