Get induced a few days early or wait?

I have a weird problem that I need to vent through and maybe if you have advice I’d be happy to listen. Or even just solidarity. Yes I’m in therapy, but for the next week and a half my therapist is on vacation.

So at 17 I went through a very traumatic experience. I don’t mind sharing it per se, but it tends to make people pretty uncomfortable when I do. The root of the problem is that I have a very big issue with the date of September 13th. My due date is September 19th, and due to a history of IUFD at 36 weeks (related to the trauma, but not specifically the trauma of the date), my OB wants to induce me at 39 weeks. That puts me at September 12th, and the induction center just emailed me saying my time slot would be 8pm. They said if I want to I can be induced on the 14th instead.

I don’t know. I would like to be done being pregnant, and I want to meet my son. I’m afraid I would be anxious about the whole thing which would slow down labor, and it would ruin the experience of giving birth (which is already a 90% awful experience anyways, up until the baby is born). I had a brief thought of “maybe I wouldn’t think about the awful experience anymore because it would be my son’s birthday” but I don’t want to put that on him and it wouldn’t be true anyways. Also I don’t want to keep him in longer if it’s not safe.

I’m a little stressed and if you have advice or words of encouragement you would be doing a kind thing. Again, I am in therapy, and I will discuss with her. I just feel a lot of things right now.

ETA: I saw the comment about going earlier than the 12th for induction and forgot to mention that I did ask my OB if this was possible (going in in the 10th) and she said the hospital would not allow it because it would be before 39 weeks and there wouldn’t be a “medical reason” to justify it. So thank you for the suggestion but unfortunately they’re not working with me. Lol