If you had asked me 3 years ago of I wanted a baby, I would have told you yes. I would have told you I' have been TTC for 8 years and I have struggled with fertility. Now, 3 years later. I have a beautiful daughter who was born at 26 weeks and no issues expect for asthma. My pregnancy however, was HORRIBLE. I go and a cerclage and I was hospitalized for almost 2 months.my daughter, she has had challenges with colds and breathing, but she is freaking resilient. I cannot see myself loving anyone or anything more than I love her.

About 2 weeks ago, her father and I (we are no longer together, we only co parent because we are truly toxic together) engaged in intercourse. We haven't in over 2 years, but the circumstances were great. We had a great day out, she went down real early, great conversation and boom we started having sex and the condom broke. He pulled out when he came, but it still was broken. I went to get a plan B, but didn't take it because I realized I was ovulating 🫣. Now, I have this test with a faint line and one I put water on with no lines. I don't want another baby. How can I love another child the way I love her ?