Pregnancy and love

SN

Hi ladies, me and my boyfriend has been off and on for 7 years straight. He’s very moody and see things his way only. The part that’s bothering me, is I’ve been always been here and he gets everything single thing he wants out of this relationship. I ask him over and over to put my feelings in consideration, show me he loves me and my son and don’t disrespect me. Anytime I go to him with a concern pertaining to our relationship, he gets upset and stay away or shut down won’t converse with me at all. Yesterday I took a pregnancy test and yes I’m pregnant. I told him and then we met up to talk.

Him: I don’t know babe

Me: huh

Him: you know my stance on it

Me: ok you said you don’t want a baby, but you did absolutely nothing to prevent it

Him: yeah when I grab a shirt or something it look like you get upset

Me: I don’t get upset, now if you ejaculate inside me two days straight then you pull out, yes that makes me confused because I don’t know what you want

Him: yeah but I don’t want a baby, my kids are grown too be about to be 18, and 27

Me: ok my son will be 15 Gods willing, this is crazy because you know exactly what I went through with his father and you sit here and do the same thing.

Him: I don’t mean to sound hurtful, but I’m getting older and my patience, man I don’t want another baby

Me: just two nights ago you ask me “ where is your pad?” I said I’m not on my monthly I’m two days late and you still came inside me.

Him: yeah because you said you was told you couldn’t have kids and then you had him. So I thought you couldn’t have kids

Me: what? My son is about to be 15, the thing is for the last time you did absolutely nothing to prevent me from getting pregnant so I’m my mind I really took it as he want to have a baby.

Now the crazy thing is, we talked about this numerous times, he was back and forth not knowing if he did or didn’t. I am 37, he’s 46. It’s here now, I’m not sure how the pregnancy will go and now I’m scared and hurt. I put up with so much in this relationship because I love him. I told him I was not getting an abortion and he told me “ it’s wrong either way” meaning I keep it it’s wrong I get rid of it’s wrong. I took his key off my ring took my belongings and before I walked out, he ask what you doing? So you breaking up with me? I told him “ you’ll never get another chance to break my heart.” So I left.

Am I wrong for still keeping my baby? I kept my son because I was told I couldn’t have kids, now it feels like dejavu I am his lady he is my man and now look we’re over and my heart is shattered.