So last year I had 3 miscarriages literally like every 3 months I get pregnant and lose the baby . Last pregnancy of the year I was told was a chemical so really I felt like I lost 4 last year . Every time I get a positive it starts a whole whirlwind of emotions anxious happy hopeful scared . Now this year when we found out we was pregnant last month we was too happy I thought finally things may go as we hope . We been so hopeful but for nothing yet again . Just got the call that my levels and the tiny sac they seen is because this pregnancy is ectopic. I can’t even process this , how ? All we want is to birth a child to love unconditionally and yet we can’t even make it past 4 weeks …. My daughter an my bf are gonna be so disappointed in me . He says he won’t love me less but after so many times he can’t see me as the same . I feel like a huge burden and a waste of a woman . He wants his first child and my daughter wants a sibling … what’s a woman worth that can’t have kids ???? I feel empty