Happy or sad

Sydney

I don’t know whether to be happy or sad… I got the test results checking for chromosome abnormalities from my 12 week miscarriage and the results said it would have been a boy (I have 1 daughter already) and everything was normal…

I’m happy that nothing was wrong because that means me & my husband didn’t pass on any abnormal chromosomes (or whatever, idk the wordage or how it exactly works). But I’m sad because if the baby had nothing wrong - why did it happen? I would have had a healthy baby.

I’m also sad that I found out it was a boy. What if we never get that boy again? It would have been perfect to have a girl then a boy and be done.

Idk… so many mixed emotions.