I just feel the need to vent. I feel like I’m the only person on this app that doesn’t want labor to come or feel excited for it. I want to be but we just aren’t prepared. Baby boy still doesn’t have a name and we aren’t close to picking one, we agree on nothing. We have a car seat and that’s only because my sister in law was nice enough to purchase it: we have some clothes because of my mom. But anything else we don’t have. No bottles ect. I work full time and pay 99% of the bills. He doesn’t have a set job, he does side jobs to help cover the gaps but even then it’s not really enough.. I’m always hearing “we need to watch our money” “we can’t afford that” “the account is negative “ ect.. I’m not getting paid maternity leave so the thought of not working is even more anxiety inducing.. we have a crib but our 16 month old still uses is and we don’t have another bed option right now. I’m getting my tubes removed at some point on leave when they can have it scheduled. But I feel so heartbroken that I don’t feel excited at all.. and every appointment they tell me I’m not close to labor is a relief ..