Dealing with anxiety on the constant!

I had a miscarriage at 17 weeks in March 2022. I got my first period july 10th and had a positive pregnancy test 3-4 weeks late (whenever I finally convinced myself to take one because I was in complete denial). I had been taking multiple pregnancy tests over the course of 2 weeks just to confirm I was in fact still pregnant but the last two I took had fainter lines than all the previous and I was convinced I was miscarrying again. So for a week, while waiting for my first doctor appointment, I kept preparing for my first ultrasound for them to tell me there was no heartbeat, or the growth is behind, or there is nothing there. Mentally preparing for the worst, but Hoping for the best.

Come to today, I am crying all morning leading up to my appointment, already planning out my time off from work this weekend for a possible d&c, and I make it to my ultrasound. The tech preps me. Scans my belly first, then immediately says, let’s go ahead and do an internal scan. I knew it, my heart sank, but I was prepared (kind of).

Then she shows me what I wasn’t expecting. A strong beating heart in my 7 week baby! I did get a little worried because I was supposed to be measuring 8 weeks and 2 days. But she explained that everything was measuring perfect and it could be off because I got pregnant after my first period post miscarriage and I could have just had a longer cycle. My doctor relayed the same. To curb my anxiety my doctor is going to to ultrasounds every 2 weeks for the first few months, but I guess my main reason for posting is to see how anyone coped with anxiety in their pregnancy following their miscarriage?! I feel like the stress and every little twitch is going to make my hair fall out and make me have another miscarriage! 😩