Miscarriage

We found out I was pregnant with my first. Went in for my first appointment with a different doctor than my normal do to them not delivering any more a couple weeks later.

That first appointment was so strange. The doctor never asked me any medical questions even what medications I was in at that time. He quickly did the appointment, did an ultrasound and left. They sent out labs that day and I never heard about how those went until I made an appointment with a different doctor. This time she was amazing and very caring and asked me a ton of questions.

At this appointment I should have been 11w5d. She did an ultrasound and unfortunately the baby stopped developing at 9-10w. I was crushed and felt very failed by the first doctor. My new doctor gave me options of what to do. I elected to wait until after the weekend since we had plans to leave town already.

The following Tuesday came and I ended up bleeding extremely heavy with massive clots. Filling a pad every hour for about 5 hours. My new doctor had called me in the morning to check on me and see what I had decided at that point. She was very attentive and caring even at that point. I scheduled another appointment with her for the following week to make sure it had emptied the way it was supposed to.

My question is what are things other women have done to help them through this? We plan on waiting to try again in a couple months to a year. It was a very traumatizing experience and would like to make sure I’m doing ok mentally before moving on.

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ka

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Hi mama, I just want to say, I am sorry for your loss 🖤I had my first MC a little over a year ago. I waited a year to try again, and then I got preg in July and it was a chemical. We ended up trying and getting pregnant the very next month and I am hoping to everything out there this one sticks. It is so hard after any loss. No matter how early, or if it was one or multiple. There aren’t really any words to say. I felt like I needed a whole year with my frost MC, but my second one I handled a little bit emotionally better. I will say that it has stolen pregnancy joy from me because I now no longer equate pregnancy to carrying a baby home in 9 mo. And I am anxious over everything. A few things that have “helped” me while I was actively miscarrying, healing, and trying to conceive/being pregnant again: -knowing worth. your worth is not defined by your pregnancy status, ability to carry a child, etc. -focusing on yourself. Don’t lose your identity in this. Do things you love even though you don’t feel like doing them until you like to do them again. You probably don’t feel like yourself right now and focusing on habits that make you feel like you again help. This also helps me now when I get really anxious about this pregnancy. I go window shopping, do my nails, go for a walk or try to remember I’m a whole person outside of this pregnancy. -realizing this is common. 1/4 women miscarry. And even more women have chemical MCs and don’t realize it. Even people who have multiple MCs are very likely to have healthy babies in the future. My doctor told me sometimes it takes a couple tries and we aren’t like rabbits or cats where the viability rate is ultra high. We are way less efficient than that. The important thing is to keep trying. -let go. This is hard for me. But realizing you don’t have control over the situation is freeing. Worrying is not going to make you feel better or heal. Thinking “if I had done this” or “maybe if I did that” is a slippery slope that puts accountability on you. I even hate the term Miscarry bc it implies we carried our babies wrong, as if we had a choice. Letting go can mean a lot of things. For me, talking about it was freeing. If friends asked why I was distant, I told them. They would sometimes get uncomf, but women deserve to not feel ashamed over this. It is so common and it sucks that it is surrounded by shame. If someone’s mother died, you wouldn’t shame them or be awkward. You get to own and express your grief, it does not have to be a secret. Your baby existed, you are grieving, and you are allowed to experience that grief and call it out by name if it helps you. Never ever let anyone make you feel like you cannot talk about it or that you did something wrong. You will feel like you again. You won’t ever be quite the same or forget but, in my opinion, I think when I do hold my rainbow baby I will cherish them that much more and love them with the love of 3x babies. My thoughts are with you 🖤 love and light to you always. You are by far not alone even though I know it seems like that

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An • Sep 12, 2022
Thank you so much for your kind words. This has been a very rough month or so. On top of this I lost two family members as well. I appreciate you sharing your story

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kay • Sep 12, 2022
Ps. If you need to talk, feel free to dm me. I understand exactly how you feel. When I first MCd I thought it was super uncommon and something was wrong with me. As I got more comf talking about it, about half the people I talk to say they have had one. I felt so alone when I first went through it and no one should feel like that.

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I’m here for support.I miscarried at 14 weeks and still have no understanding of it. I’m very numb but full of tears every time I think about my baby.

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Andrea • Sep 12, 2022
Keep your head up… we got this

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Andrea • Sep 12, 2022
@mad I agree… I’m having my first session today because it’s a lot.

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An • Sep 12, 2022
Thank you soo much for you support in this. It’s a very rough road. I’m wanting to make sure my mental health doesn’t plummet from this.