Venting session

Hi mamas, just need to vent for a sec.

So we have been super blessed with our first two boys, 2- almost 3 year old and 1 year old in June. We love how close our boys are and we really thought we wanted them close like 22 months apart would be ideal. It’s been 5 months of trying and so far nothing. I know many women have it so much harder, but with our other 2 it was right away. I guess I’m just sad and scared this will be it for us because you always see the worst.