It feels like im never getting pregnant....like my damn body doesn't want to work ....I feel useless as a women and a wife...as we tried for 2 years ....this month I believed tho...but as usually its just false hope. And then it crosses my mind what if he wants a child so badly and I cannot give it to him and then he goes off and get another girl pregnant just to be a daddy....I'm so afraid of this but I can't blame him if it comes to that....I'm so empty...and tired of feeling empty...

I'm praying so very hard ....and believing. ..

Its funny coz I should be used to not getting pregnant by now...this is painful ,I dont think my day of being a mommy is coming tho....just don't know how to accept the fact....

I'm sorry to those who can't conceive ....You're not alone ....