Days are getting harder...

I've reached the stage post partum where I'm struggling.

My baby is more awake, and she clearly wants something to happen. She isn't content just sleeping on my chest or in my arms anymore. But she hates being on her stomach.

She's eating horribly as well. Nothing is wrong apparently and she's also gaining weight as she should. So I guess it's fine, but it's so hard to figure out if she's suddenly more hungry or overtired when she's been awake for an hour +..

And I'm tired.. Between washing clothes, grocery shopping, cleaning bottles and what not, I struggle to pick between getting a nap or eating. I'm so tired of eating bread and instant noddles now, so I tend to just nap. Unfortunately that means I barely eat which is obviously not ideal. And if I eat I often eat chocolate and other candy. I'm lucky I don't have a fast food restaurant in town 😅

And then I really struggle with executive dysfunction. Like yesterday I just didn't do shit until I was forced to get out of bed because my baby was hungry. I was just lying there. Stressing about all the things I should do 🙄

I know it gets better. Everything is just a phase. But this phase right now of unhappy newborn baby who is bored but gets mad if I try to place her anywhere and also frequently has gas and is unhappy about that..... It's exhausting. Like I don't know how to do anything right at the moment 😒

And also, I'm making this post because I can't even bother to go eat more bread for breakfast..