In June I found out I was pregnant with my husbands and is first child. On a 19 hour long car ride to Disney world I started to miscarry at 9 weeks. I’m still riding these waves Of emotion.

My cousin, my sister, and my sister in law all fell pregnant within months of each other and we were all so excited and obviously I stopped communicating on that group chat. Fast forward to last weekend at my sisters baby shower. My oldest cousin was telling my aunt that she was pregnant and they were crying. I clearly over heard them and my aunt goes “uh oh” as she noticed me listening in. I was honestly devastated. It was the first time someone announced they were pregnant since my miscarriage. I tried to act happy but I know I wasn’t.

Not to be rude- my cousin just married this guy who is a complete and utter douche bag. No one likes him. She’s always talked about marrying every boyfriend of hers and rushed them into having kids which never worked out. I think she was always jealous that she wasn’t the first one to get married or have kids before us younger cousins.

So with that in mind- yeah I really wasn’t all that excited in general but this time it really stung. I went to the bathroom, cried, picked myself up and still hosted the baby shower of about 100 people.

I got told that I need to stop making. A big deal about other people getting pregnant and to stop being jealous. I was told that I shouldn’t be sad anymore because it’s been about 3 months.

Is she right? Am I wrong here?