Pregnant or???

I wonder if anyones going through what I’m currently going through.

So I’ve been trying to get pregnant on and off for about 2 years now continuously. ( I’ve been wanting another child for about 9-8 years ).

My period is normal, 26 day cycle, 16 day luteal phase. 5 days of menstruation. Only ‘weird’ thing is I’ll get my period 1-3 days earlier than it’s supposed to come. The 3 days early situation happened in august. Now I’m either 6 or 8 days late on my period. No signs of it other than occasional dull cramping. I’ve been genuinely nauseas, have food aversions, last week I was peeing way more than usual. I’ve been so hot, crampy, tired. I could have sworn I had COVID just a week and a half ago with how bad the flu symptoms were. My skin has changed, I’ve had heart burn for days, and when I have to go pee I can feel something else going on.

This is really long I apologize.

I haven’t taken a test because honestly I’m traumatized from my past several chemicals through out the years. And I feel like I’m jinxing myself if I do test, I don’t know why.

I’m just hoping AF doesn’t come and that I can have my rainbow baby soon. Hopefully May 2023 will really be my DD.