I know this app is for pregnancy and pregnancy related topics but in a way this does slightly have to do with pregnancy and I really need to reach out and get advice from third party sources. There is a lot to this story so bare with me… My boyfriend and I have been together for roughly 5 months now and I got pregnant almost right away which has been a lot on our relationship because we were trying to build towards trust and a good relationship again. The reason I say again is because we dated almost exactly a year ago and broke up due to him cheating over the phone constantly with his ex girlfriend aka mother of his daughter. A lot of people asked me why I would do it again and such like that and truthful I have been cheated on in many different relationships before and have never given a second chance but I truly missed him and our relationship and his daughter and family. Me and him broke up August of 2021 and had barely any communication until April of 2022 when we finally reached out to each other and I went to visit him and his daughter. The first time we dated I put a lot of trust in him as you should in any relationship but also with the fact of it being my first relationship with an ex in the picture because of a child I had no idea what I was doing. For the first little bit it was little red flags here and there things being said over messages that shouldn’t be her sending pictures to him that were not nudes but just so unnecessary to send and rekindling the past. I found almost every single one of these messages but truthfully it was a fight and then it was moved on with which is probably where the problem started because I made him aware that it was okay as long as he “didn’t do it again” or so get caught again. August came and I went on his phone and found months of messages hidden on Snapchat because he would remove her and add her back when he left for work. I immediately left after this and had very minimal contact for the time we broke up. We never really talked about the issue other than at the very end me just wondering “why after everything I’ve done for you” and him just sorrying me to death. Things were great for the first start of this relationship. I obviously didn’t trust him but was willing to work towards a healthy relationship with him and he promised effort and anything I needed to do so. He gave me the log in to all his socials which I know some people think crosses the line with privacy but he knew it would allow that sense of reassurance when I needed it. We had long talks about what happened and such as well. The problem is now 5 months in I still don’t trust him and she is a constant reminder everytime we have to see her. I truly hate her but I put on my fake smile and do what I have to to keep the peace. He also has seemed to stop caring about putting in the effort for me to trust him as he constantly tells me he is sick of me having his information to his social media and if I tell him I’m worrying about anything he just gets mad at me. He is the worst communicator I have ever met and talking to him is impossible because he claims he “can’t do it” and just yups me the whole time. He isn’t sneaky with his phone anymore but if I ask about what is said in there messages it’s like I’m insulting him. The other day I did go on his phone and look at their messages but I told him because I don’t want lies in our relationship and he got mad at me and told me I had no right to do that and he hates that stuff and there’s no need for it. I have mentioned couples counciling to him which he completely shut down because he won’t talk to strangers. I just truly feel like the same thing is going to happen again and it’s way more stress than I need in my life especially right now but no matter how many times I express that to him it doesn’t seem like he cares. I am also so worried I am going to have to do everything for this child alone and I want to go through this with him but I feel like he just isn’t interested in it. I also do so much for him and I get very little in return. I do everything around the house and his one job is the dishes and if it’s been days and they are still there I will say something and he will get mad at me and even the other day told me “he is a grown up he will do what he wants when he wants”. I know the simple solution that everyone feels to tell me is to just leave and I have thought about this before but truly the thought of not being with him hurts and I know the good side of him which makes it so much harder to leave. I’m just hoping someone can give some positive advice on this