I have recently become so depressed after having two miscarriages this year. I just can’t be happy everyday anymore and I can’t come to terms with my losses. People that I know have found out their expecting and some have revealed the genders. I am not jealous I just wish I could be experiencing this aswell :( It’s affects me so much. From time to time all I do is cry. I am miserable on those days and just want to curl up by myself and feel like I want to die. I am not suicidal but the pain and heartbreak can be too much and I feel like I am trash. I have good days and bad days. I think it’s my hormones aswell that aren’t helping I feel so hormonal at times. I just wish I didn’t lose my babies I just wanted them so badly :(