Help me please !!!

I am so depressed in may 2022 I lost my Babygirl at 4 months as well as died was in a coma and woke up to an empty belly all around .. had a blood transfusion n emergency hysterectomy my hair falling out I been struggling feeling normal … I woke up 5 days later from the coma in the hospital 12 days had to heal from the emergency surgery stuff as well 32 staples ., I need someone to tell me it gets better .. I am a mother of 7 and recently married after 2 dv relationships I thought this was our chapter ., but I had to heal n continue running a house hold … sex after a hysterectomy is so disconnected and I feel like he didn’t enjoy it and I don’t it’s so uncomfortable I still have my ovaries so my hormones aren’t soo off but the dryness vaginal makes me feel less of a women i gained so much weight so sad I am so sad my family n me are distant … I just want to heal mentally and physically emotionally thus is so hard I feel like why did I wake up to all this pain then I feel like it’s so hard for me to feel blessed … I’m in Theropy … ah this is so hard …