I’m just curious if anybody’s had to do it all alone and how it was.

My partner won’t make it to the birth as he’s in a different country and I have no friends or family. I’ve been to all my scans and appointments alone and I know it’s gonna be the same for the birth. This is my first and I’m scared so I guess I’m looking for some hope that it’s not so bad. I’m too scared to create a birth plan because I just don’t want to be alone. I know I could hire a doula but idk I guess I wish I could share the intimate moment with someone close or that cared about me. It’s not even the case where I’d have someone waiting or people visit, nobody cares about me that much lol.