Sad countdown Tw abuse

I'm leaving my husband on Saturday because that's when I can get help moving my stuff. I told him after horrible secrets were revealed that I need distance to think. I let him know that its like a 95% chance of divorce so it'd be a miracle if I come back....

It hurts to leave my life but this revelation smacked off my rose colored glasses and I have realized that he has been treating me horribly our whole relationship too. Taken advantage of my kindness, expected perfection while he expected praise for basic human decency, making fun of me for my PTSD and panic attacks... I guess because I was so horribly abused before, I thought this bad treatment wasn't bad. I was told by my mom I deserved to be beaten and murdered by whoever I'm with so it seemed good compared to that.

He said that im it for him. He'll never find someone else because I was his perfect partner. I asked him, "if I was your perfect partner why did you treat me so badly."

All he could say was "I don't know"

Im going to concentrate on the good family I have in my life, who are taking me in and giving me a job. Im going to concentrate on healing. On my dog. This feels like the hardest thing I've ever done, and for once I can thank God for my miscarriages.

Can I get any kind of kind words and support?

EDIT: thanks everyone. He keeps acting like he's supportive and isn't overtly trying to tell me to stay. It just hurts because 1. The man I fell in love with and the man I've realized he is isn't the same and 2. It just hurts and I feel so stupid for falling for this for like 10 years.

Most of this narcissistic behavior has come out only in the last year. It was always somewhat there, and I figured it was a trauma response (he was abused too) but this last year I've spent not a single day of being screamed at daily and then when I get upset about it hearing "im calm why are you yelling at me.

It just also hurt because I have to leave one of our dogs behind. He was a present for him so technically he is his. He's not physically abusive and good with the dogs but it hurts that I can only take the one that is 100% mine.