I don’t know what to do anymore…

My husband & I got into a fight last night over the way that he treats one of our kids. She’s 18 months old & woke up crying in the night, which is uncommon for her. He refused to check on her or comfort her because he said “there’s not a damn thing wrong with that child.”

I got upset & told him that I’m sick of how he treats her. I was very emotional & didn’t talk great to him, I admit. I was very upset.

This led to a huge fight as it always does and he said some pretty awful things to me. Some things he said were:

“I fucking hate you”

“You’re a goddamn psychopath”

“I can’t deal with this and I want a divorce”

“We’ll settle this in court” (referring to our kids)

“You ruined my life”

Fast forward to this morning… less than 12 hours later. He calls on his way to work & says he is sorry and he doesn’t want to lose me. When I didn’t just immediately let it go, he told me that I always hold grudges and that I never let go of the past. So now he’s mad at me because I didn’t immediately forgive him and act like nothing happened.

I’m so exhausted of it all. I have always just taken it and thought these fights were normal… now that I have a daughter it makes me absolutely sick to think of her growing up and being in a marriage like this.

I don’t even know if this is a question?

I guess I just want some feedback/insight/advice.

Is this normal? Is this my fault? What would you do?