just a bit disappointed

it seems silly I guess.

But I rode horses my entire youth. When I had to leave my home because of abuse I had to stop due to financial reasons.

When I got on top of my finances with my job etc.. I met my partner. He is a divorced man and all in all our finances were joint and therefore we didn't have much to spare.

Now my stepson has been riding for the last 3 years.

And it was stinging so much, I guess it wouldn't be wrong to say that I was jealous, I was longing to ride again.

So yesterday after his lesson I surprised myself by blurting out my question to his stable manager, if they still had a spot open so stepson and I could ride together.

And he told me to tryout today to check if I'd be good enough for my stepson's group. (they have a starter lesson, a special lesson and a beginner level, which is basically the 3rd riding level, my stepson is in the beginner level)

First my stepson and my partner were going to come watch, and I just wanted to share this with them. But this morning both didn't want to come anymore and when I got home nobody even really cared..

I think I feel a little disappointed... tbh.. this felt like a really big thing to me and nobody really cared.. I think I wanted especially my partner to care a bit about me that he'd at least be interested..

(I hadn't been on a horse for like 15 years... and I was also a bit nervous)

@KP

idk..

I felt like I had communicated that pretty well the first day. I have been talking about it for the last few years, that I wanted to ride again, as well.. I feel like he must have assumed it was a big thing for me.