fiance roasts me TOO much…

i’m 4 weeks postpartum and i just want to be held or kissed, told that he loves me or anything sweet. just literally SOMETHING. tell me i’m pretty. cuddle and watch a movie. but he never does. i feel like i have a roommate. we never cuddle. we never kiss. even when i try to cuddle with him he turns over so i have to be the big spoon. the only time i get affection is while we’re having sex. don’t get me wrong he makes sweet gestures, like making plans for us and he buys me flowers and i definitely appreciate it but he just like hands them to me and hops on the playstation all night so i’m kinda just standing there like 🧍🏼‍♀️ lol.. i got ready to go out and felt like i looked good for the first time since i got pregnant and he never once said i looked good.

he is the kind of person that just roasts all the time. and i think it’s funny too, like a good flirt to roast ratio, but the ratio is 1% flirt and 99% roast and it’s kinda killing my self esteem 🫠 when we first started dating it was perfect and it was fun but now that we’re comfortable, i just had our baby, and engaged, the flirting is gone and now it’s just shit talking. i tried to talk to him about it and he was like “if you want me to be soft and be a simp then fine. i just won’t joke with you anymore.” so it just gets me no where.

yesterday he said something that stuck a nerve. he was doing his usual giving weird looks and trying to joke with me by saying “wtf is that… ew. i’m leaving i can’t look at you all day” JOKINGLY and smiling. and i was like “i don’t care what you do at least i get peace and quiet” *jokingly* and he was like “really? you don’t care what i do? i feel like you care TOO MUCH and it’s kinda fucking weird.” and i just…. idk. it’s getting to me. there’s just never a moment when he’s not talking shit or making fun of me and i’m in a fragile state rn and he knows that but doesn’t care. we’re getting married next month and i just wish i could openly be excited to marry someone i love more than anything but i feel like he would just make fun of me