I feel most days I'm on a mental roller coaster I'm trying to hide my issues honestly bc no one around me cares. They don't. I don't want to burden my family with my mental health or my kids.

I'd love to do inpatient for a while to get my mind right but no one would watch my kids long enough for me to be mentally okay.

My mom is kicking me out soon and I worry about being overwhelmed with my kids or just succumbing to this bs illness. It's hard for me to see myself as ill but these intrusive thoughts are relentless.