I pray but my prayers are seem to be getting answered. I have faith and hope but I’m losing what little left. I’m getting older and life seems to be getting harder especially at meeting someone you can share your dreams and aspirations with. Someone who wants to support you as much as you want to support them.

Don’t get me wrong having and being with someone is not the end all be all BUT it’s nice to have “your person “ to share little details of life with . In addition to that as a female in her 30s it’s becoming more and more depressing because I really want kids, I have none and I don’t want to make a child with a man for making a child sake. At an extremely young age I grew up without parents so I want my child to feel what it is to have both parents active on their life but sometimes I find myself questioning God and the universe like WHEN Lord? When I my turn to win. Again don’t misunderstand I’m not ungrateful but I feel stagnant at this stage in life. I am genuinely a sincere woman, I’m always there for people but I’m tired. Might be the wrong platform but I know I can’t be the only woman that sometimes feel undefeated by life. Feel uninspired and just want to be “winning” for once.