I won’t add how I met her to keep it more anon but I met this girl and she kept talking about how badly she wanted meth. She quit meth as she’s now a mother but I swear to god all she talked about all night was meth and how if someone handed her some right then and there she would absolutely smoke it no questions asked and ruin her 3 year sobriety. That was her reply to me when I sad I am sober off of meth…(clarifying that I didn’t bring it up randomly) when she asked me if I had ever done acid before, I said yes and that I’ve done a lot of drugs and I’m actually sober off a meth addiction.

I am 11 months sober. I have worked through so much and overcame so much that she actually really bothered me saying that shit. Because what IF that situation arises and someone at one of her get together just pulls out meth because she won’t stop talking about how bad she wants it. That’s actually a very realistic and possible situation, because when you smoke meth and the people around you are okay with that, yeah you might pull it out and have a smoke dope sesh. Meth is a social drug.

She feels like a threat to my sobriety so I cut her off and I feel so bad because all night she also talked about how badly she just wanted a friend and how alone she feels, which might be why she’s wanting it so bad right now.

But I can’t risk myself guys. 11 months cold turkey I worked through all of that shit all by myself and I’m JUST now starting to feel like a normal human being. I’m not in that stage where I want meth, like the craving for it is long gone. But the idea of someone pulling it out infront of me freaks me out so bad because I honestly do not know if I would be able to stop myself from joining in if I see it and smell it and I’m just not willing to even risk that. I am so proud of myself and feel so cool that I have gotten and stayed sober because most people don’t. I left and never talked to her again and she’s tried to reach out and I’ve ignored her.

I feel like a fucking asshole but my sobriety is so important to me.

Thank you guys❤️ one more month until a full YEAR.

I did that! I wanna cry I am so proud of myself. It makes me feel powerful.