I grew up in a really crappy household. My father had a lot to do with that. I feel as if I have some trauma and will never shake that. I have noticed now that I am older it’s much worse. I have been through a lot personally with loss, grief, and all around just not good. These past two weeks I feel done mentally. From as long as I can remember I have always felt like this. I have bad mood swings, short fuse, and I feel as if when it’s good it’s great but when it’s not, it’s absolutely terrible. I want to reach out to a doctor and maybe explain all this. I am tired of feeling like this so much so it effects my marriage. I don’t think it’s depression at all! I just don’t know what it is. I just know I need help. I don’t know what else to do.