Psychic predictions

Recently I’ve been acting crazy after 2 years TTC, I’ve been searching for hope and been going to psychics. I’ve had dates come and go for a year - they have all been wrong (idk why I still do it lol) and some have said I’ll never have kids (these stick with me the longer I go without having any luck in this journey). And now I’m on a medicated cycle finally, I’ve had some say I will conceive and some say I won’t. I feel so stupid and ashamed for still going to these people. But when I’m hormonal and low, it almost becomes like an addiction. Something to hold onto. How do you guys hold onto hope for so long???