FTM vent

Had my beautiful baby boy oct 3rd and he is such a blessing. Everything I could’ve wanted but this after birth hormones are no joke. I’m so emotional and have at least one break down break down everyday since I been home. And if I just think about it it get watery eyes. This newborn stage is so hard constantly worrying about the baby. When crying just wanting him to be okay and stop the crying its truly the hardest thing I’ve ever been through. Plus the no sleep at nights because feedings and my baby seems to have his nights and days mixed up it’s so hard. I’m just waiting for the day when things get better.