When I was younger I was SA by my stepfather. I’ve recently discovered that I like when me and my boyfriend do it a little rough. Like I’ll pretend to fight him off and I like that he doesn’t stop when I do it.

I’ve felt guilty about this for a long time but I think it’s because I enjoy the fact that if I were to actually tell him NO he would stop.

I feel so so so guilty in finding some sick pleasure in it but I was wondering if anyone else enjoys that or knows someone who enjoys that after having a bad experience.

Sorry if I’ve upset you! I’m just curious.