Posting again

I posted a few times about my bf being inconsistent with what he’s been saying he’s going to do. From promising we’d move out to building on another room to getting a trailer. Then hardly communicating with me. Im 30 weeks pregnant, and before anyone says it, baby is already existing, and is very much loved and wanted.

I’m just frustrated. And fed up. My nesting phase is kicking in and I have nowhere to put any of this baby’s things. It’s literally piled in our dining room. Which is open and connected to the kitchen. And then he got $3000 behind on mortgage without me knowing until I asked about moving.

Although, the room isn’t all I’ve been upset about. It’s just the tip of the iceberg. He’s put off everything until last minute. I hate being around him. Everything is so awkward. It wasn’t like this at first. He avoids issues thinking they’ll go away. Doesn’t say good morning or good night like he used to. Doesn’t seem like he cares.

I had an apartment before I moved in and had room for the baby. My guy was telling me not to move in but he made all these promises. It seemed like a great idea, but it turns out he’s not who I thought he was. I feel like he’s in denial about the relationship and when he gets a hint something is wrong he says he can do something he can’t.

I have applied for another apartment and was planning on getting it the first of November as that’s when they said they’d have one ready. I have no where to go right now. No family has room for me.

Today, after saying for the 3rd time he can or can’t afford to build a room, although physically he couldn’t do it anyway, he brought it up AGAIN that he could. Like, I am fed up already. He said he can’t lift the wood and stuff by himself. I can’t lift it because I’m high risk. I literally feel so alone and I want to go off. He keeps asking if I’m mad but I don’t want him to end up hurting me or tearing up my stuff. But I know he knows I am upset. I’m just tired of explaining myself as I had already told him several times. So I’m not even going to explain. After him demanding I wake him up and give him a bj and anal in a random message while he was at work, I made my decision that I don’t want to be with him and can’t stand him anymore.

Another thing is he does this whiny thing when he wants something and it is the biggest turn off because he acts like a excited child.

But I don’t know how to react. He mentioned I didn’t look excited when he said something about the room again. Because I know he’s going to say he can’t do it again in a few days. My sons birthday is coming up and I don’t want any conflict until the stress of that is over with. I don’t want to cause any issues with my pregnancy. I’ve been selling some larger items I don’t want at the apartment and already have quite a bit saved up. And I have just a few things left on my registry for my baby to buy. He’s bought one thing off of it, a cow lovey. I’ve bought about 15. He wanted to wait until the last minute to get everything. I’m sorry I’m posting again. But how can I keep my cool? He’s wanting to get a new mattress too, because he thinks I will start sleeping in the bed again. I don’t want to be near him. Is this my hormones making me like this? Am I a bad person? I can’t tell if he’s driving me Crazy or it’s my hormones or what. I just need reassurance on if I’m still doing the right thing.

*** now his phone keeps going off and it feels like he’s basically giving me the silent treatment