Be me. Haha

I’ve actually managed to push people away from me, just by being myself. And being my self apparently is being different from everyone else.

I made my childhood friends hate me, my high school friends hate me, my new uni friends hate me, most of my family hates me (apart from my mother, siblings and grandparents, thank God), and finally, the guy that really really liked me, kinda hates me too now.

The thing is that I know what I’m doing wrong, but that’s just my personality and way of living. I can’t change it. If I do then I’ll be a fake version of myself.

I’m naturally an introvert (with some rare moments of being extroverted). This means that I avoid making plans with friends just because I really want to stay home. This comes out as if I don’t care about them, which is not true. I couldn’t be more grateful for having them in my life. But I can’t show it because I basically avoid seeing them without realising it.

Well my family hates me because I chose God over them, nothing much to analyse here. Nothing will change, God is first and will be first forever. So, a huge sorry to my family members that can’t accept my faith.

And lastly, the guy. Again the fact that I’m introverted plays a role. And also the fact that my family doesn’t want him either, pulls me back from expressing myself to him.

Well, that’s all. Everyone hates me now 😅