Losing my best friend

Ashland

In August I ended my best friendship I miss her so much but I wish I could go back I didn’t want to leave her. I really want to go back but I don’t think it’s good for my mental health, because she ignored me all the time and I just wanted to talk to her because I had no one else to talk to, but I keep thinking that maybe I was needy and jealous of her other friends. I keep telling my friends all the bad things, but it wasn’t all bad yk. There were good times do I just miss her or the memories with her or just her idk anymore but I just want her back.