Hello y’all, let me introduce myself. I’m Kelly, This pregnancy would of been my 4th, but as the present right now I only have one child that’s living. Here I am saying “ it’s my first miscarriage, but 4 pregnancy “? I’ve had 2 whole pregnancy within 4 years apart of caring my baby girls until I went into labor. My first daughter had a medical heart condition,” called Hypoplastic left heart syndrome. As she grew she become more sicker with having more health issues. She lived in and out of the Boston hospital for 16 Months. 2 years later after losing my first child, I become pregnant again with a healthy baby boy. 2 years later I get pregnant with a baby girl witch also had a heart problem, but difference heart condition. With my second daughters heart was in large- she lived only 4 hours after birth. Here it is 4 years now Im getting the chance to become pregnant… Now I’m so behind on words to how I’m feeling. Last week went for my first ultrasound finding out was like 5 weeks or so only a sack, This Monday I had my second ultrasound done and no progress within 10 days. My levels weren’t going up at all. Tuesday got blood drawn. I Haven’t had any miscarriages signs from hurting or bleeding so Tonight i had to end the pregnancy with these pills,the doctor prescribed me.

I never experienced this feeling before, making me an emotional wreck, I can’t explain it.

I don’t know what’s the worst feeling…My first miscarriage or actually losing my baby girls

I don’t wish this hurt , pain I’m feeling for anything