Been married 5 years and since about year 2 or 3 it's had devastating effects on my health. How do I navigate this. Have I been a total jerk at times too? Yes. The difference is that I know I'm wrong and apologize while my husband continuously says he's the victim. So any swearing at me, name calling, saying I'm toxic, ect are all okay bc I deserve it he says. I don't feel protected. Esp my emotions. He refuses to communicate. Puts his headphones on or leaves the room. He gaslight. He stonewall. I feel like the situation is impossibly. I have zero support system and no family. My parents are gone, my siblings are mia. Now I know I'm not the only one who is frightened/offended by my husband's behavior bc we've been kicked out of many places bc of his mouth. It's humiliating. His parents think he's perfect and I'm so lucky to have him. I'm totally lost and we have a young child. There's no cheating. There's no physical abuse. But by golly would God permit an divorse and possible remarriage? My husband is un teachable un correctable. He truly thinks he is a Saint to me (he tells me so!). He denies huge events that occurred which terrifies me. I don't know what I'm mentally dealing with here. I'm extremely depressed and anxious. Also he chooses to not sleep in the room with me. We barely intimate. I have zero desire for him. His scary mean cruel face in arguments have done me in. He disappears after a work day. No greeting. I'm lonely man. He also never let's me know when he'll be home. He's always atleast 1 hour off and he refuses to correct that annoying behavior. He not acting like a husband or dad. I'm lonely. I'm in despair. I'm truly not in a good place at all. Signed feeling hopeless