I lost my dad to brain cancer back in February and found out I was pregnant 3 months later. Going through grief/ mourning and pregnancy at the same time has been an emotional ROLLER COASTER as you might imagine :( I’ve found peace in the thought that my baby boy was a gift from my dad, as I was going down such a dark and twisted path before I found out and saved me from self destruction. I just still can’t grasp the fact that he will never get to hold or physically meet his grandson, I think about it everyday. I still cry to him quiet often and don’t understand why it had to be this way, but I know I’ll never get an acceptable answer. He visits me in my dreams and it’s so comforting to hug him in every one, I just wish it could be in real life and my son would get to experience those embraces in his life. I hate that I’m going to have to tell my baby by ear about his grandpa instead of showing him how amazing, funny, and genuinely sweet he was. My dad was such a light in this world. God forbid any of you have any of you dealt with these feelings, but the ones who have/are currently how do you cope? I have yet to even try, I just cry and cry