Am I bad for wanting my AF to show up soon

I’m on cycle day 17 (17 days since I first started to bleed from a miscarriage at 6wks)

I just want my AF to show so I can start again I won’t fall pregnant without clomid (I fell pregnant on 150mg 6th cycle first cycle on 150mg first time ovulating since last June). 4 years ttc first time even getting pregnant

This is my last cycle on clomid when I get my next period (the hospital did say they might be a case for me to try 2 more rounds providing the my next cycle on clomid that I ovulated in my next cycle.

I know I be the unlucky one and have to wait weeks for my period to come it be just my luck. I did get the ok to ring at 8 weeks after bleed if no period to get provera to kick start a period. I am also on 2000mg metformin.

Sorry for the vent