So , one drunken night my boyfriend told me all the female celebrities he’s attracted to . They’re all beautiful, big asses, big boobs, flat stomachs, smooth skin. Then there’s me, damn near almost 300lbs after giving birth twice back to back, no ass (it’s just wide), my boobs sag , definitely don’t have a flat stomach it hangs, I have stretch marks, cellulite, pimples, scars from pimples . And yet he tells me he likes my body the way it is. But i don’t look like all the girls he’s attracted to . It just doesn’t make sense to me . I also found out what porn he’s into. The same exact girls he’s attracted to, he gets off to . I never see any females that look like me , ever . When we’re out in public hell lol at other females that walk by with a fat ass or big boobs , I get he’s gonna look , but he just doesn’t look , he’ll stare , like I can literally stare at him while he’s staring , I’ll say something and he’ll just say he wasn’t staring at her , I’ll never mention anything about a female yet he already knows what I’m talking about . He literally makes me feel so insecure about myself , and I’m doing the workouts the diets all that just so I can be what he’s attracted to . He tells me I don’t need to lose weight or anything for him . But actions speak a whole lot louder than words . He makes me feel so ugly and unattractive . We only have sex when he wants to . And when I’m not in the mood it’s always “I’m going to poop” like wth . Make me feel like I’m attractive to you if not leave me alone .