Pregnancy is just too much. I’ve been having a rough pregnancy as it is. I had my anatomy scan at 24 weeks and they found that I have a short cervix. They put me on progesterone which gave me first trimester symptoms all over again. I also felt pelvic pain like when you are at the end of your third trimester preparing for birth. I went to the OB for a routine visit and was sent to the hospital because I started dilating (at 25 weeks) among other things. My doctor was nervous because my cervix was soft. The speculum and swabbing actually hurt. I had to get checked to see if I was having contractions luckily I was not. The doctors believe I will have our baby early. Time will tell how early. The idea of having a premie is scary. I’m hoping somehow, someway this will be a full term birth but February 8th is pretty far from now. I’m focusing on having a positive mindset. I’m stuck at the point of you need to prepare, and you should be laying down most of the time. The two just don’t go together. I’m trying to expect the best, and mentally and physically prepare for the worst. I know I do best with information so I’m trying to research and relax ( yeah those two don’t go together either). Oh, did I state that I’m not ready for all this. Yeah, I’m not ready for all this. Mom life isn’t always glamorous. I’m still grateful and I’ve got a great support system so I’ll figure something out. But some days I honestly feel like this cannot be life.