Hey y’all.. I just need a place to vent. Long story short, my baby boy is 7 weeks old now.

His dad and I split in early February. I did not see him once in pregnancy, we fought over the phone almost the entire 9 months because he wanted me To take him back but we were sooo toxic for each other I never did. Then for maybe the months of may-July we didn’t talk even once. I thought by august maybe we would be able to get along better since so much time had went by, and we did a little bit, but then he started in again with “ your bubble shows your online you must be getting other attention” etc etc I’m sure y’all can imagine how bad it got.

So I said, let’s make this about the baby and the baby only , told him when I was in labor and everything, and he never showed up. Fine fine whatever. I try and let that go and offer him to come see the baby, mind you he lives a little less than an hour away, and 7 weeks later still hasn’t showed up. He wants me to drive the baby all the way out there where he is, and I haven’t wanted to or felt like it so he says I’m the reason he can’t meet his son.

There is obviously much more to the story, but I guess my issue is I can’t let him go. I don’t want him, I won’t take him back, but I keep fighting with him because I’m scared to cut him off 10000%. I need advice. He’s so toxic. He didn’t sign any paperwork, or nothing. Baby doesn’t even have his last name. He complains about the baby but wants me to do literally all the foot work and says this is all my fault. I just wanna ignore him all together and be done even if I love him, but he makes me feel bad, or like I have to defend myself. I’ve turned into a very angry person too, at everyone but my kids. Can’t stand how I was treated with this pregnancy by him especially but others also. I hate this

Also, he has 3 other children with an ex he takes care of wonderful. Why can’t my son have a dad? It’s like he wants me, nudes, sex talk or to know my business but that’s it.