I don’t want to get any hate for this at all but I feel like I will...

Anyways I feel really bad about myself for being jealous and angry. I see so many people having babies and we’ve been ttc for 2 years. We’ve both got tests and everything is perfect so not sure what to do anymore. I see one of my best friends once again have her 5th baby a week ago. This is her 3rd one with in 2 years. Her first 2 she had 8 years ago but they both got taken by child services right at birth and she never saw them again. She was and still is a very active drug user. But now she has her other 3 in her care. She was able to get pregnant back to back and doesn’t even try. Then I’m seeing everyone getting pregnant. I’m jealous that I can’t even do the one thing my body is supposed to and I’m angry at myself. So many teenagers and women don’t even try and they get pregnant right away. Of corse I’m happy for everyone who get to experience the joy of being parents but I can’t help but feel this way. We just want to be parents so bad 😭