i think i’m burnt out. i’m tired all. the. time. mentally, physically, and emotionally tired. i have zero motivation. i have to drag myself out of bed every morning to get to work. i’m so close to just quitting my job. i have to force myself to do simple tasks like brushing my teeth. i dread coming home to the toxic household i live in. i’ve spent numerous weekends at other peoples houses. i avoid being around at all costs. i’ve been depressed and anxious nonstop, being triggered by the smallest things. i’m extremely irritable and very easily annoyed. i feel like im a bad sister because of that fact. i get mad easily and then i snap and use a harsh tone with my siblings and i immediately feel bad bc they don’t deserve to be snapped at like that for no reason. i’ve had more panic attacks than i can count, i can’t breathe, i can’t think. i’m tired of my life. i’m not happy with my life. i want change but i don’t know how to change or what to change. i feel like i’m not strong enough for the people that need me. i’m not strong enough to be a second mother to my siblings, i’m not strong enough to be there and be a good partner to my significant other. i feel like i’m falling apart and i don’t know how to put myself back together. i have no idea what i’m doing or where i’m going or who i am. i’m so beyond lost and i feel so close to giving up.