What do I do or what am I doing so flipping wrong. Sorry for the long essay

I'm a mother of two one 9 year old and. 3 and half month old. Been with my hubby for years. We had a falling out tonight and I have lost everything about me 😭😭. I had made his mum a birthday cake as a surprise, made tea, started cleaning up before and then stopped to eat which I had a couple of mouth fulls and chucked it due to him being on one. He recently built a extension which is now a toilet. Not fully heat proof so it's getting cold and wet. He went crazy and had a go at me because I shut the door as it's freezing. I apologized I said I thought you said to keep it shut. He went on when did I say that since I put new handles on the door to shut it properly. He did say it but again I'm delusional. Then I started to clean up after myself from the baking and cooking for him to start again, saying all I ever do is cook and clean never priotise. This is because I didn't suggest going out to bonfire night to watch fireworks. I say I want a family and family time yet I don't mention anything. I again apologized and said I did plan us to have family board game night and watch a movie before all that. So I then ended feel.guilty and feeling like such a crappy mum. None of that happened. I get called insane. Because I do the same crap day in day out. I do everything around the house and the kids. I don't stop. Don't get a break or a lay in. Yes he works 8-4 5 days a week. On a weekend he never offers to watch the girls and let me sleep for an hour even when spoken about. Yet he gets to sleep in till 11am, I am mentally and physically exhausted. I am on maternity ATM. He says I don't do anything nor have I changed anything. From fitness, to the relationship, to family, I'm doing 2 fitness programmes with my friends I made at mummy group that I have gone to since my baby was born. I have changed my diet to eating better and having my shakes. I spend time with my kids, whethers it's reading,cuddles,tickle time etc. He sits on his Xbox and that's my fault. Yet it's the first thing he does every time. The relationship he goes on about going off with other women even the other night said the supposedly godmother offered him around to hers to stays the night and that her parents where away, which hurt, I was pregnant aswell, he didn't because he has.morales but if he wanted to he could. I said I want to speak to her because she is out of order especially under the circumstances and we only had a disagreement and this is all because I don't make an effort in our sex lifes. I think why would I when you stripped me off and stood me Infront of a mirror and said look at the state of you,your so out of shape it's unattractive and being called a fat lazy slob. I stood Infront of the mirror in tears. I get called a wet lettuce. I can't just up and leave it's a council house. I ended getting rid of my car because I can't afford it, he has his yet I pay for it all. He pays his tax and gas and electric. Every time he said it's over I've left him to it and he gets into my head and worn me down. I have begged for him back because I'm forever and a day saying this is all my fault I'm doing wrong. I'm a bad parent and bad wife. I am stuck as he has rid everyone nearly around me. I'm cry myself to sleep and I'm so low. I am left feeling guilty and that I have to change as I'm the problem as he says. Girls I'm so stuck and don't know what to do anymore. I'm failing 😭😭