It’s been a year since my ex and I broke up. We broke up for many reasons. He’s emotionally cheated on me more than once, and truly I can’t trust him. He broke up with me because he felt I deserved better.

A couple months later he tried to come back into my life. It took every ounce of self respect for

me to put my foot down and tell him no. Every now & then he would message me asking how

I’m doing. He says he still feels the same way about me & nothing has changed. He said he still see’s me in his future and it’s hard for any of that to change. I told him that he had his chance with me and he messed up, multiple times.

Truly, there is this part of me that still wants to be with him. I don’t know if it’s because he’s familiar and I’ve once loved him, or if it’s because I don’t have anyone special in my life at the moment and I’m rather lonely. I’ve tried dating apps but nothing works out of that. It’s slim pickings out here to be honest.

I do still have feelings for my ex. I still love him but I’m not in love. He still sends me pictures of his little nephew who he knows I’m obsessed with. He even told me happy birthday last week. I’m just confused. What should I do? Should I try and reconnect my past relationship? Or am I feeling vulnerable and lonely that it’s making me have these thoughts? It was my birthday the other day & I missed having him in my life. I wish I would stop feeling this way.