I met this guy earlier in the year. It was great but we both were just having fun, doing relationship stuff without the title. I met his family and friends, he met mine. Well we had an abortion and I cut him off because I was no longer able to see him due to some personal circumstances with family and not being allowed to see him or else id be shunned. He was willing to try and sneak around but I personally couldnt see the relationship crumble due to these circumstances. Two weeks later on the abortion date he texts me checking up on me and we start talking again. We confessed our feelings and admitted to taking eachother for granted. The time apart basically confirmed my feelings. Yet I couldnt deal with all the sneaking around, it was so much pressure and I still had to heal from the trauma my family and the abortion caused me. One drunk night I ended up texting him and we tried again. It was going very well this time. Unfortunately the stress still had a big impact on me and i got insecure that we wouldn’t be able to have this normal relationship like we once did before the abortion. I let him go for good but I have trouble moving on. Our connection was so good and he was so patient with me. I only wish I could’ve been the same for him but I just came to terms with not being ready for a relationship. Also please don’t judge for us trying multiple times, we wanted it to work so badly. Does the right person wrong time really exist? Should I keep some hope that we can work once I am our of these circumstances and independent? Or should I just move on and take my loss? It hurts a little more when you know you lost a good person 💔