Lot of different emotions I’m so lost help please

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Couple days ago I told my husband that recently I I just don’t want sex I just couldn’t really explain it or why I felt like this I felt horrible telling him but he had the right to know I explain it not him it has nothing to do with him then yesterday I found out I’m positive for HPV we look it up for little bit and it said basically said you don’t want sex or not in the mood I was happy hearing about that since that’s could be the reason why I feel like this well hubby still heart and upset I understand I would be too but know we know why but he’s still likes it’s all his fault he’s failed etc I keep telling him it’s not him I love him I want to be with him I try to cheer him up but nothing is working so now I feel like shit for telling him how I feel normally I would of kept it to myself but I knew i couldn’t I’m just so lost on what to do and how to cheer him up but it always backfired and him saying things that hurt me like he feels I’m not in love with him anymore or I won’t want to be with him etc that’s not the case at all