I know this isn't the point of this group but it's the only announce place I can get my feelings out right now. My husband's best friend killed himself Sunday night and we are going to his funeral today. I've been overly emotional about it in my own time because my husband is truly the one hurting here.

It took me a minute to realize why his death is so hard for me. Not only because I'm sad for my husband but because I've been dangerously depressed before and my heart aches for this friend. He had been struggling for years. He withdraw himself from all of his friends. I saw the signs a few years ago and told my husband he needed to keep an eye on him. My husband isn't the type to take mental illness seriously. So it didn't go very far.

I'm emotional because I've been there and I somehow survived my depression and it feels like I'm going to a funeral for a disease I'm currently in remission for and could very well relapse on at any time. This could be me one day. So many emotions I just want to get off my chest so I can fully be there for my husband today.