My ex is using the dog to manipulate me into allowing him to constantly message me his wearabouts (even though I don't respond). Leaving this dog upsets me more than leaving my husband since the dog did nothing wrong. I know he'll take care of the dog because he loves him so much.

I know I should cut him off and block him so he stops contacting me but losing my connection to this dog makes me start crying hysterically. We had 2 dogs and I can't care for more than the one I did take with me. I live in a travel trailer now, so there is not room for 2 rambunctious doggies and its best for that dog to stay up there....

How horrible of a person am I that leaving a dog behind hurts more than leaving a husband. That man killed the man I loved.... no worse than that, the man I loved never actually existed because I thought the man I married wasn't harboring disgusting, horrific secrets... and lying to my face the whole time.

Honestly I feel really good about leaving except leaving this dog behind. I know itd be unfair to him had I taken him with me (he has a good set up there), but I feel so horrible that I got him and abandoned him when I wanted to be his forever dog mom.