My grandma tells me I need to go to the Dr and tell them about it but I feel like they will just tell me to do what I’m already doing and it will be a waste of time I’ve had to take melatonin since I was a kid to sleep when I was pregnant I stopped taking it and I slept fine then i thought it went away but ig I was just tired from being pregnant now I literally can’t sleep at night unless I take 2 melatonin and 2 benedryl I started taking Benadryl cuz my allergies at night and in the morning are super bad I can’t breathe if I don’t take it but I recently stopped taking it cuz I all of a sudden care about my liver idk why but I CAN NOT SLEEP unless it’s the middle of the day I’ll stay up until 5-6 am then when my 15 month old son wakes up I regret not going to sleep but I try and I just can’t keep my eyes closed I can’t stop thinking my brain just thinks about the most random stuff and will not cut off…. Sometimes I can get his dad to let me sleep in and I’ll wake up at like 11-12 when he lays the baby down for a nap I just don’t want to waste time going if they aren’t going to do anything.

It’s like there’s a 20 minute window when I’m tired and can fall right asleep but when it’s gone I’m up all night and can’t sleep. I’ve tried not drinking or eating anything hours before bed I’ve tried no tv or phone I’ve tried the white noise and rain sound and the classical music that I loved while I was pregnant to sleep but literally nothing works. It’s stressful and its crazy that I only sleep like 3-4 hours a night and still can’t sleep when I lay down. I have no energy to do anything like get off the couch or play with my baby poor walk or do literally anything but I can’t sleep either I just sit all day I still play with him and cook dinner and breakfast and occasionally lunch but it’s exhausting after being tired all day why am I not tired at night. I want to get up and clean the whole house and organize everything at 3 am but can’t close my eyes and go to sleep….