So, I’ve been hardcore focused on improving my mental health lately and I started using a pill thingy for day/night throughout the week.

I’m on quite a few medications for mental health, depression meds, antipsychotic meds, anxiety meds, and some for chronic pain, and sleep.

I am prescribed birth control, however. It just dawned on me I’ve NEVER put my damn birth control in this pill thing. It’s been three months since I’ve been using it! So…. I went into my kitchen and I looked. Sure enough, the pills I picked up two months ago (three month supply at a time, which should leave me with one pack…) and I have 4 full packs of birth control.

So I’ve been off it for 3 MONTHS AND I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE BECAUSE OF THE SHEAR AMOUNT OF PILLS I TAKE A DAY.

So, on that note. Yesterday my boyfriend and I got busy and he finished inside as we weren’t using condoms because the XL’s were too small (I also have an abnormality that tends to snap condoms during the deed if they aren’t the correct size, which happened multiple times for us. Doctor said we must be using them wrong so I watched a few YouTube videos to make sure this man was doing it right and HE IS!) and I haven’t pushed him to get bigger ones yet because of my birth control 🤦🏻‍♀️

Not ideal in the slightest.

I hadn’t noticed any ewcm the last three months so I didn’t even notice the change there.

Welp. Today sure enough TONS of ewcm. Yes, I know the difference between left over cum and ewcm. I’m having what feels like mild period cramps. That’s what tipped me off to maybe not putting my birth control in this thing.

Why did I have myself convinced I’ve been taking it this whole time!!!! 🤦🏻‍♀️

I should mention I’ve been off and on different types of bc my whole menstruating life and prior to these last few months I took a few months off, took it for a month then got my pill thingy for all my pills and had this massive slip up… so I wasn’t really back in the groove of taking the pill every day… I’m also autistic with adhd and I’m VERY out of sight out of mind and this literally hadn’t crossed my mind because I still had them in the plain white bag from the pharmacy and I guess it never clicked in my head because I wasn’t looking at them directly.

Here’s what my cycle is looking like.

So if you read this far, my questions are basically how do I tell my boyfriend I’m an idiot and we haven’t been safe this whole time and what are the freaking chances here… when should I test?