Anyone ever want to be a bad ass that can be cold and care about themselves first but are too nice to do it?

I really like being nice but it HURTS so bad whenever I have to put up a boundary or whatever. I wish I could just be a cold bitch (in the best sense) sometimes.

I really love characters and people that are sexy cold bitches that protect the people they love and say fuck the world.... meanwhile here I am a soft sweater baby who cries when I get angry and feels horrible whenever someone's feelings get hurt, whether on accident/purpopose. Doesnt matter if they deserved it or not.